So there's this guy (as all stories start). At first, we really hit it off but problem: he had a gf. We kind of fooled around a bit & hung out a lot (something I'm not proud of, but just felt caught up in the moment, I know that's no excuse). Eventually, we ended things but still had a great attraction towards each other. He finally realized he was being an *** to his gf & has really been trying to make it up to her since. Things between us continued to be kind of awkward b/c he tried to mak...

I played volleyball when I was younger a little, but haven't played in like 10 years at all! I seem to have forgotten any good tips or strategies and now I feel like I just suck. Unfortunately, I don't have much time to practice, but I play on an intramural team once a week and am quite embarassed because I'm concerned everyone on my team thinks I suck. I'm honestly not that bad, as in I hit it pretty well, but I think I'm just slower in making it to the ball. I don't have that intuitiv...

You know how you know those people that you kind of secretly despise because they are just all-around good at everything? It just doesn't make sense how they can know how to do just about everything and always come out at the top and yet still seem like good people? I'm not going to say that that used to be me, but at least my friends used to think so. I remember in High School, I used to have friends tell me all the time that they kind of hated me because I was "perfect." I know they d...

I know people can come up with an argument for pretty much anything as being evolutionarily adopted, but really some emotions we can do without. Yeah, yeah, without fear, you wouldn't necessarily kick in that "fight or flight" response that tells you that you're in danger, but I'm considering a less physiological approach. I just don't understand how being afraid is helping us through life. You're supposed to learn from your mistakes and fear is supposed to help you do that? Well, I'm sur...

You know how you talk to some people and just can't help but crack up at everything that comes out of their mouth, whereas other people will repeat exactly what the first person said, and you can barely crack a smile? Obviously this has a lot to do with the art of story-telling. This is why some people are born to be comedians and other people...not so much. This is also true of something serious. When some people tell a story, everyone at the table is all-ears, but this is not true for e...

So I'll admit that I'm known for not getting a particularly satisfactory haircut each time I go in, although most of the time it's just that I end up getting it cut too short. Since I'm in a new place, I thought I'd try a new salon as well. I've never found that one stylist that does my hair just right, so I had nothing to lose. I went in and explained exactly what I wanted to the lady. I said, cut off an inch and a half, give me some smooth looking layers (not choppy!), and a face fram...

I just realized that one of the hardest things in life is to learn to let go. I'm sure this is not some type of epiphany but it kind of is to me because I realize it is the stem of almost allll my problems. I have definitely NEVER mastered this phenomenon and have never come close to being able to figure out how to even begin. It seems so much easier to just push things into the back of your mind or ignore them until something changes and you can just kinda move on because your attention ...

So the first few months at this new place were going well. I was pretty cheery, I had a lot of friends, I was starting to feel attractive, school was going well...for the most part things here were pretty settled. I thought to myself that finally, things were going to be good. And then it suddenly started to hit again. I don't know what it is. I am starting to feel sad again randomly. It's almost like a Catch 22. I get sad, not sure if it's for a reason or if I just start to get sad (b...

Here's the shortened scoop. I accept some of the blame, but it's not all my fault that all guys are idiots and girls have been conditioned to hope for the nonexistent "good ones" (Oh Disney movies, how you do us wrong). Met a guy who was in a pretty long-term relationship (1.5 years), and was starting long-distance. Made it clear to me that he wasn't sure him and his gf were gonna last (after meeting him the first night). Spent a lot of time together and realized we had an obvious and i...

What I quickly learned during my first week of graduate school is that at this point, practically everyone is either hitched, soon to be hitched or in a long-term relationship. Problem: I'm not. Not that I have a problem with being single at all. What I do have a problem with is being attracted to non-single people. I quickly formed a judgement to realize that the chances of me being attracted to someone in my class was highly doubtful, especially one of the single guys. I wasn't compl...

The weird thing is that the thing that's most been keeping me out of a deep funk for the past few months is the memory of it back in February. It was the only time I've ever allowed myself to ask for help from friends or to even let them know I was going through something quite crappy. That's when I quickly learned that even those who are your closest friends can't be there for you in the way you need them to. It finally hit me one day so hard that I honestly thought my life was done forev...

Time and time again I've found that the thing that hurts me the most is that I feel like I have a one-way relationship with most people. I listen to them, help them, care for them. In return, I get a lot of "laters." I am fairly closed to begin with. I have a hard time telling people problems or telling them personal things about myself. The times I have tried, I have been unsuccessful in that I have received a whole lot of "I don't know what to say" or "Awee...I'm sorry" or "Don't worry...

There are some things I have recently discovered I am randomly and unhealthily addicted to: - Grey's Anatomy - Lifehouse music - thinking about making fries in the oven and then not doing it - staying up wayyy too late - trying to neutralize my karma by not making mean comments about people...even fake people like celebs (and by neutralize I mean following all comments with, I bet he/she is a very nice person) - greeting people with awkward, "ghetto lingo" - wondering if the more "fa...

I'd like to start off by saying that I love my roommate, I do, and I hate the fact that I complain about her, but it just upsets me that she just acts so weird...and sometimes I wonder if she knows what the word, "friend" means. My latest discovery is that I absolutely can't go to the bar, or probably even out to lunch or perhaps even public, with just my roommate alone. We went out the other night, and first of all, it was hard enough to ask her to look at me when I was trying to talk to...

"If you spend your life fearing death, then you will lose the very thing you tried to save." What a quote. Seems to apply to so much more then just death. Too bad I can appreciate and understand these quotes so well...but applying them to my own life ends up being so much harder. "