Time and time again I've found that the thing that hurts me the most is that I feel like I have a one-way relationship with most people. I listen to them, help them, care for them. In return, I get a lot of "laters." I am fairly closed to begin with. I have a hard time telling people problems or telling them personal things about myself. The times I have tried, I have been unsuccessful in that I have received a whole lot of "I don't know what to say" or "Awee...I'm sorry" or "Don't worry about it" or "Anyways, back to me." Really, this doesn't help to chip my wall down in the least bit. Even here on JoeUser, I sometimes feel that admitting something or writing a heart felt blog is pointless because apparently unless you're in the "In" crowd here, people don't care enough to read or respond to your blogs.
There are those people who seem to really gain my trust in that I should be able to tell them something, and the minute I try, they blow it all over...within seconds I mean. This includes anyone from my best friends, friends I've just started getting closer to, parents, or strangers. Is it really that difficult to get someone to listen to you and just respond thoughtfully for once? Especially when they come to me all the time expecting an understanding, which I take the time to offer almost always.
Ironically, I really do live on a one way street.