Still? Are you kidding me?
So there's this guy (as all stories start). At first, we really hit it off but problem: he had a gf. We kind of fooled around a bit & hung out a lot (something I'm not proud of, but just felt caught up in the moment, I know that's no excuse). Eventually, we ended things but still had a great attraction towards each other. He finally realized he was being an *** to his gf & has really been trying to make it up to her since. Things between us continued to be kind of awkward b/c he tried to make sure things were set between him and his gf. I couldn't help but still have strong feelings towards him, on which, for the most part, I didn't act. Eventually, he did something that pissed me off & I figured he was kind of a jerk & was FINALLY happy to be done with him.
...or so I thought...
Problem is...I don't know why! but even though I thought things between us were finally platonic...when we hang out, I wonder. I have never had chemistry w/ anyone like I seem to have w/ him & I don't know what to do. I know he is probably no good for me & that he is really trying to work things out with his gf, but I can't understand how it still feels so right? I really did think it was totally over and done with. I didn't find an intense attraction to him anymore when I simply saw him around and thought that was a good sign. In fact, I was incredibly surprised when we simply looked at each other and I noticed that there was still something there. I really have been working hard to let things go, and thought I was finally successful, so how is it still there? I feel clueless all of a sudden. 