I think that's exactly why people choose religion.  They are desperately seeking to give life - as an entire whole thing - some meaning.  I suppose it is one solution, and if you immerse yourself in it deeply enough, you'll manage to forget that it was you that put it there in the first place - aka it isn't real.

I'm no sage.  Maybe that will work for you.  I felt the same things you did, and I tried to make it work, but it never felt REAL.  It felt like I was pretending.

So in the off chance that you've already tried religion and it felt like pretending to you, too, I'll recommend a shift in perspective.  Everytime you wonder whether there is anything "real," spend some time defining (on paper preferrably) who you are.  It can be anything as simple as "I like chocolate" to the most complex beliefs about any particular subject you have interest in.  Decide who exactly it is that you are.

Once you've done that, look at the things you have chosen in your life and ask "Is this congruent with MY definition of who I am?"  Eliminate those things that are not.  Become the best at those things that are.  This is where you will find what is real.

Thanks, guys. I appreciate your comments. I do tend to look toward spirituality a lot when I start looking for more in my life. Religion, as a whole, would never work for me because I can't believe things that people tell me. I need them to completely make sense and fit together. I question a lot and for me, I just couldn't accept everything a religion tells me simply because it's part of another list. I don't mean that in a derogatory way, but I just couldn't accept it unless it truly made sense to me.

However, I think my blog came off with the wrong intention. I don't find life meaningless. Like I said, I can find a million and one reasons to realize that life is great and worth living. I know I have a lot to look forward to. It's day to day living that gets dull. I just feel like I'm always going thru the motions & dealing with people who find amusement and entertainment in the most superficial of forms. I just want to feel alive and find some type of mystic feeling that's not just from believing in a God. It's like that feeling you sometimes get on the first day of great weather when you step from indoors to outdoors and the breeze is just perfect and your mind clears on its own because you are so busy just soaking in the unbelievable weather. THAT type of feeling alive.